Ned Henry January 6, 2021 · (nedhenry.medium.com)

This is that little one room shack with a dirt floor and a fire pit in the middle where I stayed in the Oaxaca mountains for a week by myself looking for the Yaqui Way of Knowledge as described by Carlos Castaneda using psilocybin mushrooms and trying to “get” the teachings of Don Juan. I was going through some pics and found it. This was one of times in my life where I felt utter sadness, loneliness and abandonment. I ordered the flannel sheets but they won’t get here until Jan 19. Bummer as we used to say. I am up late again. And my feet are cold again. But I am more relaxed after holding the buddha for a while.PranaIn Hindu philosophy including yoga, Indian medicine and Indian martial arts, prana (, prāṇa; the Sanskrit word for…en.wikipedia.org

So I want to say something. What I am doing here is mostly working out my past. My future is in God’s hands or whatever your concept of God. I’m learning what mine is. The present is sacred. I am protective of the present. There are things happening in the present that I am not going to share. They are intimate and they are personal. Now I also know that all of this is timeless so past, future and present are one. I know this path I am on has a hard edge. But I also know there are a couple of you who ARE on this path with me. And as I’ve said before, it’s OK whether you are or not. Or whether you decide to take a break or not. This is all timeless. This is life happening and that’s all it is. People ask me what I need and I am going to try to tell you. I need your love. Not in words and texts necessarily. I am screening calls and if I don’t answer it’s just because I am busy with my own stuff. But you can send your love with your mind. I will get it. I am getting love from many people right now and I know it because I can feel it. You don’t have to pick up your phone to tell me. Use your mind instead. And while you are at it, send some love to the guy in the car next to you, the baby in the grocery store with her mother or the homeless guy you just walked past or anybody and everybody you encounter. Because it’s all the same. So let me feel your love by your loving first yourself and then your world. This is what I am trying to do in the present. I’ll keep working on my past in this blog. It is a great tool for that. But just know that is what I am doing here. The work is bigger than the blog. You can do the work if you want. This crisis has finally made me wake up and realize it’s time to get on the ball and do my work. So I may or may not come back today. I will post something every day even if it’s just one word just to stay in touch. I am going to try to read a short book I had trouble getting through called The Path is the Goal. I’ve always used books mostly as reference tools. But I want to try to get into this one a little deeper. I am going translate My Feet are Cold. And I am going to try to get some sleep. It’s 5:58 AM on 1/6 and I have not really slept since chemo on 12/29. And I did not sleep again tonight. I’m fine. I’m doing great. I feel energy but I really need to make myself rest today. So use your mind to send love out. That’s what I need.

Here is today’s Lesson 6 from the Course in Miracles. “ I am upset because I see something that is not there.”

A-dios.