
Ned Henry January 31, 2021 · nedhenry.medium.com
Noon: I’m not sure I am going to keep this up. Am rethinking whether I really want to be so public about what I am going through and where it is taking my mind. Did not sleep last night. Leg is still numb and painful and that prevented sleep. Just tried to pass time and make it through the night. This is hard. Chemo is kicking my ass. I’m like a feeble old man hobbling around with a cane truing to prevent myself form falling because I know that could be lethal. I’m tired. Tired of chemo and I have months of it ahead. Tired of being alone. Tired of “putting up the good fight.” Tired of my leg being so weak that I can’t walk . Just ready to rest. For now, I will say that I will write a few words every day but I’m not sure anymore if it’s such a good idea to be so open and public about my experiences. I’m not sure it’s helping. Who the fuck cares anyway?
2:40 PM — Just sad and tired and lonesome. Not giving up but really feeling down right now. I just don’t know if I can do this for another 4 rounds of chemo.
10 PM — Didn’t write much today. Not completely sure about I am going to do in February but I’ll write something every day.