23 emotions people feel, but can’t explain

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Ailsa Ross

Ailsa Ross · Feb 26, 2019 · (Medium.com)

These wonderful words come from the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows, “a compendium of invented words” by graphic designer and editor John Koenig.

He’s come up with dozens of terms that pinpoint the emotions we all feel but don’t know how to communicate. And my heart is bursting with the whimsy of it all.

1. Sonder

The realization that each passerby has a life as vivid and complex as your own.

2. Opia

The ambiguous intensity of Looking someone in the eye, which can feel simultaneously invasive and vulnerable.

3. Monachopsis

The subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place.

4. Énouement

The bittersweetness of having arrived in the future, seeing how things turn out, but not being able to tell your past self.

5. Vellichor

The strange wistfulness of used bookshops.

6. Rubatosis

The unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat.

7. Kenopsia

The eerie, forlorn atmosphere of a place that is usually bustling with people but is now abandoned and quiet.

8. Mauerbauertraurigkeit

The inexplicable urge to push people away, even close friends who you really like.

9. Jouska

A hypothetical conversation that you compulsively play out in your head.

10. Chrysalism

The amniotic tranquility of being indoors during a thunderstorm.

11. Vemödalen

The frustration of photographic something amazing when thousands of identical photos already exist.

12. Anecdoche

A conversation in which everyone is talking, but nobody is listening.

13. Ellipsism

A sadness that you’ll never be able to know how history will turn out.

14. Kuebiko

A state of exhaustion inspired by acts of senseless violence.

15. Lachesism

The desire to be struck by disaster — to survive a plane crash, or to lose everything in a fire.

16. Exulansis

The tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it.

17. Adronitis

Frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone.

18. Rückkehrunruhe

The feeling of returning home after an immersive trip only to find it fading rapidly from your awareness.

19. Nodus Tollens

The realization that the plot of your life doesn’t make sense to you anymore.

20. Onism

The frustration of being stuck in just one body, that inhabits only one place at a time.

21. Liberosis

The desire to care less about things.

22. Altschmerz

Weariness with the same old issues that you’ve always had — the same boring flaws and anxieties that you’ve been gnawing on for years.

23. Occhiolism

The awareness of the smallness of your perspective.

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Valentinus (Gnostic)

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Valentinus (also spelled Valentinius; c. AD 100 – c. 160) was the best known and, for a time, most successful early Christian gnostic theologian. He founded his school in Rome. According to Tertullian, Valentinus was a candidate for bishop but started his own group when another was chosen.[1]

Valentinus produced a variety of writings, but only fragments survive, largely those embedded in refuted quotations in the works of his opponents, not enough to reconstruct his system except in broad outline.[2] His doctrine is known only in the developed and modified form given to it by his disciples.[2] He taught that there were three kinds of people, the spiritual, psychical, and material; and that only those of a spiritual nature received the gnosis (knowledge) that allowed them to return to the divine Pleroma, while those of a psychic nature (ordinary Christians) would attain a lesser or uncertain form of salvation, and that those of a material nature were doomed to perish.[2][3][4]

Valentinus had a large following, the Valentinians.[2] It later divided into an Eastern and a Western, or Italian, branch.[2] The Marcosians belonged to the Western branch.[2]



Epiphanius wrote (c. 390) that he learned through word of mouth (although he acknowledged that it was a disputed point) that Valentinus was “born a Phrebonite” in the coastal region of Egypt, and received his Greek education in Alexandria, an important and metropolitan early center of Christianity.[5][6] The word “Phrebonite” is otherwise unknown,[7] but probably refers to the ancient town of Phragonis,[8][9] near present day Tidah.[10] In Alexandria, Valentinus may have heard the Gnostic philosopher Basilides and certainly became conversant with Hellenistic Middle Platonism and the culture of Hellenized Jews like the great Alexandrian Jewish allegorist and philosopher Philo.[citation needed]

Clement of Alexandria records that his followers said that Valentinus was a follower of Theudas, and that Theudas in turn was a follower of Paul the Apostle.[11] Valentinus said that Theudas imparted to him the secret wisdom that Paul had taught privately to his inner circle, which Paul publicly referred to in connection with his visionary encounter with the risen Christ (Romans 16:25; 1 Corinthians 2:7; 2 Corinthians 12:2–4; Acts 9:9–10), when he received the secret teaching from him.[citation needed] Such esoteric teachings were downplayed in Rome after the mid-2nd century.[12]


Valentinus apparently taught first in Alexandria and went to Rome about 136, during the pontificate of Pope Hyginus, and remained until the pontificate of Pope Anicetus, dying probably about 160 or 161. The Christian heresiologists wrote details about the life of Valentinus, often scurrilous.

In Adversus Valentinianos, iv, Tertullian says Valentinus was a candidate for bishop, after which he turned to heresy in a fit of pique. He did this apparently along with Marcion, who was also active in Rome at the same time.[13] Commonly unaccepted, we cannot know the accuracy of this statement, since it is delivered by his orthodox adversary and might not be other than a rhetorical insult.

Valentinus had expected to become a bishop, because he was an able man both in genius and eloquence. Being indignant, however, that another obtained the dignity by reason of a claim which confessorship had given him, he broke with the church of the true faith. Just like those (restless) spirits which, when roused by ambition, are usually inflamed with the desire of revenge, he applied himself with all his might to exterminate the truth; and finding the clue of a certain old opinion, he marked out a path for himself with the subtlety of a serpent.

Conversely, Epiphanius of Salamis wrote that Valentinus taught with piety in Rome, but that he gave up the true faith after he had suffered a shipwreck in Cyprus and became insane. Epiphanius might have been influenced to believe this by the presence of Valentinian communities in Cyprus.[14]


Main article: Valentinianism

Valentinianism is the name for the school of gnostic philosophy tracing back to Valentinus. It was one of the major gnostic movements, having widespread following throughout the Roman Empire and provoking voluminous writings by Christian heresiologists. Notable Valentinians included HeracleonPtolemy, Florinus, Marcus and Axionicus.

Valentinus professed to have derived his ideas from Theodas or Theudas, a disciple of Paul. Valentinus drew freely on some books of the New Testament. Unlike a great number of other gnostic systems, which are expressly dualist, Valentinus developed a system that was more monistic, albeit expressed in dualistic terms.[15]

While Valentinus was alive he made many disciples, and his system was the most widely diffused of all the forms of Gnosticism, although, as Tertullian remarked, it developed into several different versions, not all of which acknowledged their dependence on him (“they affect to disavow their name”). Among the more prominent disciples of Valentinus were HeracleonPtolemyMarcus and possibly Bardaisan.

Many of the writings of these Gnostics, and a large number of excerpts from the writings of Valentinus, existed only in quotes displayed by their orthodox detractors, until 1945, when the cache of writings at Nag Hammadi revealed a Coptic version of the Gospel of Truth, which is the title of a text that, according to Irenaeus, was the same as the Gospel of Valentinus mentioned by Tertullian in his Against All Heresies.[16]


Valentinian literature described the primal being, called Bythos, as the beginning of all things. After ages of silence and contemplation, Bythos gave rise to other beings by a process of emanation. The first series of beings, the aeons, were thirty in number, representing fifteen syzygies or pairs sexually complementary. Through the error of Sophia, one of the lowest aeons, and the ignorance of Sakla, the lower world with its subjection to matter is brought into existence. Man, the highest being in the lower world, participates in both the psychic and the hylic (material) nature, and the work of redemption consists in freeing the higher, the spiritual, from its servitude to the lower. This was the word and mission of Jesus and the holy spirit. Valentinius’ Christology may have posited the existence of three redeeming beings, but Jesus while on Earth had a supernatural body which, for instance, “did not experience corruption” by defecating, according to Clement:[17] there is also no mention of the account of Jesus’s suffering in First Epistle of Peter, nor of any other, in any Valentinian text. The Valentinian system was comprehensive, and was worked out to cover all phases of thought and action.

Valentinius was among the early Christians who attempted to align Christianity with Platonism,[citation needed] drawing dualist conceptions from the Platonic world of ideal forms (pleroma) and the lower world of phenomena (kenoma). Of the mid-2nd century thinkers and preachers who were declared heretical by Irenaeus and later mainstream Christians, only Marcion of Sinope is as outstanding as a personality. The contemporary orthodox counter to Valentinius was Justin Martyr, though it was Irenaeus of Lyons who presented the most vigorous challenge to the Valentinians.


Valentinus’s name came up in the Arian disputes in the fourth century when Marcellus of Ancyra, a staunch opponent of Arianism, denounced the belief in God existing in three hypostases as heretical. Marcellus, who believed Father and Son to be one and the same, attacked his opponents by attempting to link them to Valentinus: In the fourth century, Marcellus of Ancyra declared that the idea of the Godhead existing as three hypostases (hidden spiritual realities) came from Plato through the teachings of Valentinus,[18] who is quoted as teaching that God is three hypostases and three prosopa (persons) called the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit:

Now with the heresy of the Ariomaniacs, which has corrupted the Church of God… These then teach three hypostases, just as Valentinus the heresiarch first invented in the book entitled by him ‘On the Three Natures’. For he was the first to invent three hypostases and three persons of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, and he is discovered to have filched this from Hermes and Plato.[19]

While this accusation is often sourced in stating Valentinus believed in a Triune Godhead, there is in fact no corroborating evidence that Valentinus ever taught these things. Irenaeus makes no mention of this in any of his five books against heresies, even though he deals with Valentinianism extensively in them. Rather, he indicates that Valentinus believed in the pre-existent Aeon known as Proarche, Propator, and Bythus who existed alongside Ennœa, and they together begot Monogenes and Aletheia: and these constituted the first-begotten Pythagorean Tetrad, from whom thirty Aeons were produced.[20] Likewise, in the work cited by Marcellus, the three natures are said to have been the three natures of man,[21] concerning which Irenaeus writes: “They conceive, then, of three kinds of men, spiritual, material, and animal, represented by Cain, Abel, and Seth. These three natures are no longer found in one person, but constitute various kinds [of men]. The material goes, as a matter of course, into corruption.”[22] According to Eusebius, Marcellus had a habit of mercilessly launching unsubstantiated attacks against his opponents, even those who had done him no wrong.[23]

Valentinus’ detractors

Shortly after Valentinus’ death, Irenaeus began his massive work On the Detection and Overthrow of the So-Called Gnosis (better known as Adversus Haereses) with a highly negative portrayal of Valentinus and his teachings, which occupies most of his first book. A modern student, M. T. Riley, observes that Tertullian’s Adversus Valentinianos retranslated some passages from Irenaeus, without adding original material.[24] Later, Epiphanius of Salamis discussed and dismissed him (Haer., XXXI). As with all the non-traditional early Christian writers, Valentinus has been known largely through quotations in the works of his detractors, though an Alexandrian follower also preserved some fragmentary sections as extended quotes. A Valentinian teacher Ptolemy refers to “apostolic tradition which we too have received by succession” in his Letter to Flora. Ptolemy is known only for this letter to a wealthy gnostic lady named Flora, a letter itself only known by its full inclusion in Epiphanius‘ Panarion. The letter describes the gnostic doctrine about the laws of Moses and their relation to the demiurge. The possibility should not be ignored that the letter was composed by Epiphanius, in the manner of composed speeches that ancient historians put into the mouths of their protagonists, as a succinct way to sum up.

The Gospel of Truth

Main article: Gospel of Truth

A new field in Valentinian studies opened when the Nag Hammadi library was discovered in Egypt in 1945. Among the very mixed bag of works classified as gnostic was a series of writings which could be associated with Valentinus, particularly the Coptic text called the Gospel of Truth which bears the same title reported by Irenaeus as belonging to a text by Valentinus.[25] It is a declaration of the unknown name of Jesus’s divine father, the possession of which enables the knower to penetrate the veil of ignorance that has separated all created beings from said father. It furthermore declares that Jesus has revealed that name through a variety of modes laden with a language of abstract elements.

This unknown name of the Father, mentioned in the Gospel of Truth, turns out to be not so mysterious. It is in fact stated in the text: “The name of the Father is the Child.”[26] Indeed, the overarching theme of the text is the revelation of the oneness of Christian believers with the “Father” through the “Son”, leading to a new experience of life characterized by the words “fullness” and “rest”. The text’s primary claim is that “since need came into being because the Father was not known, when the Father is known, from that moment on, need will no longer exist.”[27] The tone is mystical and the language symbolic, reminiscent of the tone and themes found in the canonical Gospel of John.[28] There are also very striking linguistic similarities with the early Christian songs known as the Odes of Solomon.[29] It notably lacks the unusual names for deities, emanations, or angels found in many other of the Nag Hammadi texts. Its accessibility has led to a newfound popularity, evidenced by inclusion in such devotional compilations as A New New Testament.[30]

More at: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Valentinus_(Gnostic)



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The Pattern Inside the Pattern: Fractals, the Hidden Order Beneath Chaos, and the Story of the Refugee Who Revolutionized the Mathematics of Reality

By Maria Popova (brainpickings.org)


I have learned that the lines we draw to contain the infinite end up excluding more than they enfold.

I have learned that most things in life are better and more beautiful not linear but fractal. Love especially.

In a testament to Aldous Huxley’s astute insight that “all great truths are obvious truths but not all obvious truths are great truths,” the polymathic mathematician Benoit Mandelbrot (November 20, 1924–October 14, 2010) observed in his most famous and most quietly radical sentence that “clouds are not spheres, mountains are not cones, coastlines are not circles, and bark is not smooth, nor does lightning travel in a straight line.”

An obvious truth a child could tell you.

A great truth that would throw millennia of science into a fitful frenzy, sprung from a mind that dismantled the mansion of mathematics with an outsider’s tools.mandelbrotset.jpg?resize=680%2C510

The Mandelbrot set. (Illustration by Wolfgang Beyer.)

A self-described “nomad-by-choice” and “pioneer-by-necessity,” Mandelbrot believed that “the rare scholars who are nomads-by–choice are essential to the intellectual welfare of the settled disciplines.” He lived the proof with his discovery of a patterned order underlying a great many apparent irregularities in nature — a sweeping symmetry of nested self-similarities repeated recursively in what may at first read as chaos.

The revolutionary insight he arrived at while studying cotton prices in 1962 became the unremitting vector of revelation a lifetime long and aimed at infinity, beamed with equal power of illumination at everything from the geometry of broccoli florets and tree branches to the behavior of earthquakes and economic markets.FractalFlight_by_MariaPopova1.jpg?resize=680%2C780

Fractal Flight by Maria Popova. Available as a print.

Mandelbrot needed a word for his discovery — for this staggering new geometry with its dazzling shapes and its dazzling perturbations of the basic intuitions of the human mind, this elegy for order composed in the new mathematical language of chaos. One winter afternoon in his early fifties, leafing through his son’s Latin dictionary, he paused at fractus — the adjective from the verb frangere, “to break.” Having survived his own early life as a Jewish refugee in Europe by metabolizing languages — his native Lithuanian, then French when his family fled to France, then English as he began his life in science — he recognized immediately the word’s echoes in the English fracture and fraction, concepts that resonated with the nature of his jagged self-replicating geometries. Out of the dead language of classical science he sculpted the vocabulary of a new sensemaking model for the living world. The word fractal was born — binominal and bilingual, both adjective and noun, the same in English and in French — and all the universe was new.

In his essay for artist Katie Holten’s lovely anthology of art and science, About Trees (public library) — trees being perhaps the most tangible and most enchanting manifestation of fractals in nature — the poetic science historian James Gleick reflects on Mandelbrot’s titanic legacy:

2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.pngMandelbrot created nothing less than a new geometry, to stand side by side with Euclid’s — a geometry to mirror not the ideal forms of thought but the real complexity of nature. He was a mathematician who was never welcomed into the fraternity… and he pretended that was fine with him… In various incarnations he taught physiology and economics. He was a nonphysicist who won the Wolf Prize in physics. The labels didn’t matter. He turns out to have belonged to the select handful of twentieth century scientists who upended, as if by flipping a switch, the way we see the world we live in.

He was the one who let us appreciate chaos in all its glory, the noisy, the wayward and the freakish, form the very small to the very large. He gave the new field of study he invented a fittingly recondite name: “fractal geometry.”

It was Gleick who, in his epoch-making 1980 book Chaos: The Making of a New Science (public library), did for the notion of fractals what Rachel Carson did for the notion of ecology, embedding it in the popular imagination both as a scientific concept and as a sensemaking mechanism for reality, lush with material for metaphors that now live in every copse of culture.fractals_KochCurve.jpg?resize=680%2C509

Illustration from Chaos by James Gleick.

He writes of Mandelbrot’s breakthrough:

2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.pngOver and over again, the world displays a regular irregularity.


In the mind’s eye, a fractal is a way of seeing infinity.

Imagine a triangle, each of its sides one foot long. Now imagine a certain transformation — a particular, well-defined, easily repeated set of rules. Take the middle one-third of each side and attach a new triangle, identical in shape but one-third the size. The result is a star of David. Instead of three one-foot segments, the outline of this shape is now twelve four-inch segments. Instead of three points, there are six.

As you incline toward infinity and repeat this transformation over and over, adhering smaller and smaller triangles onto smaller and smaller sides, the shape becomes more and more detailed, looking more and more like the contour of an intricate perfect snowflake — but one with astonishing and mesmerizing features: a continuous contour that never intersects itself as its length increases with each recursive addition while the area bounded by it remains almost unchanged.wilsonbentley_snowflakes22.jpg

Plate from Wilson Bentley’s pioneering 19th-century photomicroscopy of snowflakes

If the curve were ironed out into a straight Euclidean line, its vector would reach toward the edge of the universe.

It thrills and troubles the mind to bend itself around this concept. Fractals disquieted even mathematicians. But they described a dizzying array of objects and phenomena in the real world, from clouds to capital to cauliflower.AgainstEuclid_by_MariaPopova.jpg?resize=680%2C764

Against Euclid by Maria Popova. Available as a print.

It took an unusual mind shaped by unusual experience — a common experience navigated by uncommon pathways — to arrive at this strange revolution. Gleick writes:

2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.pngBenoit Mandelbrot is best understood as a refugee. He was born in Warsaw in 1924 to a Lithuanian Jewish family, his father a clothing wholesaler, his mother a dentist. Alert to geopolitical reality, the family moved to Paris in 1936, drawn in part by the presence of Mandelbrot’s uncle, Szolem Mandelbrojt, a mathematician. When the war came, the family stayed just ahead of the Nazis once again, abandoning everything but a few suitcases and joining the stream of refugees who clogged the roads south from Paris. They finally reached the town of Tulle.

For a while Benoit went around as an apprentice toolmaker, dangerously conspicuous by his height and his educated background. It was a time of unforgettable sights and fears, yet later he recalled little personal hardship, remembering instead the times he was befriended in Tulle and elsewhere by schoolteachers, some of them distinguished scholars, themselves stranded by the war. In all, his schooling was irregular and discontinuous. He claimed never to have learned the alphabet or, more significantly, multiplication tables past the fives. Still, he had a gift.

When Paris was liberated, he took and passed the month-long oral and written admissions examination for École Normale and École Polytechnique, despite his lack of preparation. Among other elements, the test had a vestigial examination in drawing, and Mandelbrot discovered a latent facility for copying the Venus de Milo. On the mathematical sections of the test — exercises in formal algebra and integrated analysis — he managed to hide his lack of training with the help of his geometrical intuition. He had realized that, given an analytic problem, he could almost always think of it in terms of some shape in his mind. Given a shape, he could find ways of transforming it, altering its symmetries, making it more harmonious. Often his transformations led directly to a solution of the analogous problem. In physics and chemistry, where he could not apply geometry, he got poor grades. But in mathematics, questions he could never have answered using proper techniques melted away in the face of his manipulations of shapes.


Benoit Mandelbrot as a teenager. (Photograph courtesy of Aliette Mandelbrot.)

At the heart of Mandelbrot’s mathematical revolution, this exquisite plaything of the mind, is the idea of self-similarity — a fractal curve looks exactly the same as you zoom all the way out and all the way in, across all available scales of magnification. Gleick descirbes the nested recursion of self-similarity as “symmetry across scale,” “pattern inside of a pattern.” In his altogether splendid Chaos, he goes on to elucidate how the Mandelbrot set, considered by many the most complex object in mathematics, became “a kind of public emblem for chaos,” confounding our most elemental ideas about simplicity and complexity, and sculpting from that pliant confusion a whole new model of the world.

Couple with the story of the Hungarian teenager who bent Euclid and equipped Einstein with the building blocks of relativity, then revisit Gleick on time travel and his beautiful reading of and reflection on Elizabeth Bishop’s ode to the nature of knowledge.

Releasing the Hidden Splendour class on March 13 & 14, 2021


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                             Alex Gambeau, H.W., m.

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             Life Members:  Contribution BasisPayment Plan: Can Be EstablishedOur ability to remember or bring back to conscious mind the memories in life so we can tell our story, or relive/reflect on our so-called past, is a powerful element of who and what we are. We say “so-called” because all that we have experienced before now, in this moment in time, has shaped us into who and what we think we are, how we behave and act, the way in which we interact with people and events in life. If we have emotions or patterns where we are stuck in an endless cycle of repetition, or negative emotional reactions, then that part of our past represents where and what we need to let go of or release. Releasing the Hidden Splendour is a tool to do just that. Your class moderator will be Alex Gambeu H.W., m.

Releasing the Hidden Splendour is also referred to as the Let Go and Give-For Technique. As we practice this tool, we let go of stuck emotions and give up our false beliefs that anyone “did” anything to us, for a new understanding of the events unfolding before us to release our inner goodness. We recognize that all is within our own mind or consciousness. We have the power to change our memories of the past and see a new picture/outlook of our life:   Please call me with any questions you might have at 360.696-9120.
 Class will start at 9:00 a.m. Pacific time till early evening, Saturday & Sunday March 13 & 14, 2021. Please join the Class via Zoom: https://zoom.us/j/823491899
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The Coronavirus Update

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Johnson & Johnson’s shot is approved, the House passes $1.9 trillion aid bill, and the EU plans for vaccine passports. Here’s what you should know:Headlines

Johnson & Johnson’s vaccine is approved in the US

The FDA and the CDC gave Johnson & Johnson’s Covid-19 vaccine the go-ahead this weekend. The first shipments are expected to go out this week. J&J told lawmakers last week that it would be ready to ship almost 4 million doses as soon as the shot was approved, and that it should have 20 million doses ready by the end of this month. Officials say that the vaccine, which only requires one shot and can be shipped at regular refrigerator temperatures, could be helpful for overcoming logistical hurdles and getting harder-to-reach populations inoculated.

House passes Biden’s $1.9 trillion aid package, paving its path to the Senate

Over the weekend, the House passed President Biden’s $1.9 trillion pandemic aid bill, largely along party lines. Now, it will go to the Senate as legislators race to get it approved before some federal unemployment aid expires on March 14. The plan includes provisions to extend unemployment benefits, send $1,400 stimulus check to many Americans, and provide more money to state and local governments.

Plans are underway for EU-wide vaccine passports

In a speech today, European Commission president Ursula von der Leyen said that later this month the EU will put forward a proposal for vaccine passports. These would provide proof that someone has gotten a Covid-19 vaccine, evidence of negative test results if they’re not yet vaccinated, or information about their recovery if they’ve had the disease. If enacted, this proposal would make it easier for Europeans to travel during the summer, and has received particular support from some countries that rely on tourism.

Refining my viewpoints

By Pam Rodolph, H.W., M.

March 1, 2021

Long ago, Thane said things will speed up so much that those who cannot change with it will go mad. Just watched a news program where they discussed that very thing. That things are changing too fast and people just aren’t ready for it. They are experiencing rage, blame, and the desire to rebel. Some are dropping down into violence. Just looking at one aspect of fast change has been extending human rights, particularly to minorities. It appears its not the fact of extending their rights, but at how fast it is happening. For me, this helps explain the alt right and also Antifa, for that matter. For me, its a different way of looking at them – instead of a terrorist group, they are, instead, a group of people who cannot come to grips with the speed of change of the world today. This isn’t anything you haven’t already thought about. But we are going to be dealing with this for a long time. 

My Cancer Journey 2/28

Ned Henry February 28, 2021 · nedhenry.medium.com

So dealing with Cancer and maybe even beating it, is one thing. But this neuropathy is a whole new ballgame. Whether it is caused by the Vincristine in the chemo regimen or the chemo regimen just caused a flare up of the mild stenosis I know I have in my lumbar spine, doesn’t really matter. The effects are the same There are 2 distinct things going on with my feet and the left foot is much more pronounced than the right foot. The first is the coldness and numbness that I feel mostly on the bottom of the feet. This is caused by the nerves not firing so that I can feel normally. I can’t feel my toes to help me balance so I am unsure on my feet. The doctor on Friday told me there is no medical treatment to get those nerves to wake up. That doesn’t mean that there is nothing I can do but whatever course I take will take time. Acupuncture is something that I will try and the compound cream they gave me does seem to cause more pain in my foot but I am looking at that almost as a good sign that the nerves might be waking up. The second neurological issue is the pain and tightening that I feel mostly on top of the left foot. I do not feel this on the right foot. This is what keeps me up at night when I am trying to sleep. That issue is treated with the pharmacology treatment they are giving me with Lyrica. At least that is my understanding. That Lyrica will eventually cause these nerves that are firing too much to calm down. Now whether that will then also inhibit the nerves I want to wake up to get over the coldness and numbness, I will have to wait and see. The neuropathy is complicated. I will also get back to PT as soon as next week (hopefully) and see PT specialists for neuropathy. I spent most of yesterday and today just trying to move my toes on my left foot. I am able to get some very small movement out of the big toe but nothing out of the other toes. And my feet remain cold. So even though I might be beating the cancer, the prospect of not being able to walk normally again is a depressing one. I am not that old. 70. And a pretty young 70 since I have been active most of my life. I may not be able to ski again in this lifetime (we’ll see) but I want to travel again in Europe and I want to play golf again and be active and swim again and work out again. I am not ready to resign myself to being “permanently disabled.” And that is what the oncologist said about continuing with the Vincristine. I will know more about how the chemo is working without the Vincristine at the next PET CT scan next week. The Physical medicine doctor who specializes in cancer chemo side effects, said that we will work with it for a year. His words were that if in a year I can’t get better, then it will likely be a permanent disability – not encouraging but honest. But he also said we are only at the very beginning of that year and that some people are able to restore normal nerve function after this kind of neuropathy caused by Vincristine. So I will work the program and do my best to keep my mind from going to those dark and hopeless places where I end up on crutches for the time I have left on earth. I go there sometimes. I am weak sometimes and just want to feel sorry for myself. I have to remember how my cousin Johnny never seemed to go to those places as he wasted away with ALS. Most of the time, I know better. And I have my tools. I’ve learned lots of them over the course of my life. So I keep fighting. But the new battle may become My Neuropathy Journey if I get the all clear for cancer after 6 chemo treatments. Right now it’s both battles. So even though I have some positive indications about the cancer, I am hardly out of the woods yet. I do think I will have a long battle with the neuropathy. I have been through years and years of PT after my orthopedic surgeries — all 4 of them — and that work is grueling and requires daily work at home. I’m sure this new kind of PT will be the same. Lots of hard work ahead. The good news in all this is that I know that there are so many of you pulling for me to get through this so we can get together and do fun things again. And you know Covid makes this whole process so much more complicated since I can’t even get close to you these days. I will get my second vaccine shot next Tuesday and that will give me some protection but I will have to be careful about it probably for the rest of my life as a cancer survivor if I’m lucky enough to be counted in that group. Mt goal though, is to beat the cancer with the chemo and then to get normal function back in my feet and then to start to get strong again. Right now, I don’t feel very strong. I am fatigued from the chemo and the problems with getting enough sleep. So those are my thoughts as we end the month of February. It got up to 77 today here in Atlanta and I had a long visit on my deck with Pete, who brought me my now weekly gourmet meals. I must say, many people may lose weight during chemo but that is not the case with me. I am not losing weight but I am also not gaining weight. And I am eating very well with the meals people bring me whether from a restaurant or from their own kitchens. And the weather is getting warmer and after another month we will definitely be past any freezing temperatures overnight and should see some nice warm Spring days. Adn Atlanta explodes in color in springtime. The dogwoods and azaleas bloom all over town and in my yard and the wisteria that shades my deck in the summer comes out with pruple flowers for about 2 weeks. All that will happen in the next 6 weeks or so. And I want to be strong enough to go for some walks this spring and see the wildflowers— even short walks — on some of the nature trails around here. So I’ll sign off for now. Next week will be a busy one. Covid shot on Tuesday, PET CT on Wednesday and Chemo #4 on Friday.

It does look like I will lose my tutoring gig with refugee kids. They don’t have a new student for me to work with right now. I’m bummed about that. I thought Yunus are I were making good progress but he just didn’t want to continue and got himself kicked out of the program by not showing up for his sessions. I wonder if the IRC is doing English tutoring over zoom these days. I spent a few years teaching English with them to refugees but that ended with Covid. I think the volunteering helps me probably more than it helps the people I work with although I know it helps them too. I miss it. It’s a big hole in my calendar. Oh Iowa beat Ohio State today in basketball. Big game. Big win. Look out for the Hawkeyes. (My brother Jack went to Iowa so I pulled for them even though my niece Rosie went to Ohio State.) See ya next time.