Ned Henry January 25, 2021 · nedhenry.medium.com
Well It’s 1:20 AM and I am listening to the first act of Die Walkure. Not watching listening and now typing. It’s been a great night. The second game wasn’t as good as the first game. So we have The kid who easily could become the greatest ever and we have the guy they call the greatest ever playing a home game in Tampa. I kinds wanted to see 2 old NFC East rivals go at it in the Super Bowl. Teams that were familiar to each other. but instead we have the 2 best teams as far as I’m concerned. At least peaking at the right time. Tampa has had to find it’s way but they look damn good right now. Kansas City if just fucking awesome. So we’ll see. I’m a homer — alwasy have been as my brothers will tell you. I bailed on the Dodgers when I moved to San Francisco and then hated the Dodgers as a Giants fan. I still have a soft spot for the Giants but now the Braves are my team. And well Tampa is is the same conference as the Falcons so I am rooting for the NFC South. Big underdog probably. So after football I did catch the last 30 minutes of PBS Newshour so I don’t know any reall current news or anything, but I caught Brooks and then they had this story about a hometown hero. Let me go find it. You’ll probably have to sit through the commercial. It’s worth the 8 minutes to listen to this.Looking back at the life of baseball legend Hank AaronOne of America’s greatest athletes, Henry Louis Aaron, died Friday at the age of 86. The famed baseball player endured…www.pbs.org
Then I started listening to the opera but not watching it. What’s been great is that I have been moving. Sure I smoked some pot and then I just moved for the whole evening. Gentle moving. Hips and arms with a weighted ball I bought for my golf swing years ago. Stretching and a little walking and some back flexibility stuff all very gentle. It was just so good to take a night off from the mental and spiritual and concentrate on the physical. You know the little weeping buddha. Sometimes I like to sit with him and breathe or sleep with him and sometimes I want to leave him alone and just move around more and mayeb look at him and talk to him. Probably strange to some. But I do a lot of talking to myself talking to pictures of just singing out loud. Using my voice. My singing voice really sucks right now btw. And my energy is not great. But I am doing well. Well I’m doing what I’m doing and I’m telling you about it.
So they’re well into Act 2. I really found this act boring when I watched it. There is a hint of the sound of the Valkyries on the way. I will end this post when Act 3 starts and I will go watch it a couple of times. I had a thought. Gone. Maybe it’ll come back. Proprioceptive writing. Keep going something will come I know it will. OK well I’m out of practice clearly. So I had that stoned insight last post — Prayer is talking to your higher self. Well I had another being stoned during the Bills game. Prayer is listening and talking to your higher self. Getting closer. I shared a story on the local Neighborhood network about the Covid vaccine distribution at Emory. Told them I was a 70 year old man with cancer under treatment at emory in in chemo thereapy there. I’m on the wait list but can do nothing to get moved up whatever priority list they are using. The oncologists have no power. It’s only the clinical team. Well someone reached out to me and we hsared out stories. Her husband is 80 I think with just one kidney and can’t get moved up the list either. But many, well maybe not many, but some others are getting the vaccinne especially from the county. I didn’t want to go there. I don’t often post on Neighborhood but I did today. So this is getting boring. I might just be getting too full of myself. I’m just enjoying the writing for the first time in along time. And letting the stream of consciousness out as it comes to me. I’m trying to be as open and honest as I can. I have to be with myself. This disease could kill me. And I know that. And I have never faced anything even close to that in my entire life. So my perspective has changed, my priorities have changed, and my activities have changed. And writing is my way to let it all out. And I’m having fun with it which is sorta rare for me. I’m not that fun of a person. I think I am fun loving but I would call myself fun. I’m wearing Allison’s socks from Seattle. ? They’re wool not fleece. Not as good in the cold by themselves but great inside the boots I’m wearing abound the house these days. The days have been nice. The nights a little colder. Not like Chicago or anything. We only have a hint of seasons here but we definitely do get a hint. Took some sleeping meds a few minutes ago and am waiting for them to kick in. It’s 2 AM for crying out loud. And we’re still lagging through the boring Act 2. I’m gonna quit typing and just go fast forward to Act 3 and get well experience whatever I experience. Buenos noches.
2:45 AM I can escape the world I see by giving up attack thoughts. It’s not Act 3 yet and well as I wait for Act 2 to end I came back to the lesson. Still not tired. Will take another Ambien. God this is a long fucking opera.
It’s 3 :30 PM — Haven’t felt like doing anything today. Not feeling as stong even though I took the Prednisone this morning. Was disappointed in the Ride of the Valkyries last night when I watched it. Probably my state of mind. Did pick up my glasses that got repaired. It was a hassle without them. These are trifocals so I can use them for reading, computer and far away. Without them I am changing glasses all the time with old ones depending on what I am doing. Also got a box mailed and a couple of letters. Ate some salmon and some cookies. But haven’t done much of anything today. Just not feeling very energetic.
6:50 PM — Just finished Django Unchained. Saw the first hour the other night and saw the last 2/3 of the movie this afternoon. It’s not for everyone, but it’s a really good movie. I like Tarnatino movies. And this is one of his very best. I also think Kill Bill (both parts) make a powerful statement. So color me a Tarantino fan. Gonna get some dinner and watch the Newshour and probably write a little more later.
8:30 PM — Wow, Whole Foods delivery really delivered on the Swiss Chard. I ordered 2 bunches of organic Swiss Chard and got about twice as much as I expected. So I steamed up one bunch, pulled the last piece of shepherd’s pie out of the freezer and just ate myself silly for dinner. Topped it off with couple of chocolate chip cookies and well does it get any better than that? Whole Foods delivery is usually not that good trust me. But this time on this item I hit the jackpot.
Watched the PBS Newshour on demand so I’m all caught up on the day to day stuff. Amy Walter had some good insights tonight and there was just a really cool story about theater in Miami and how they are keeping it alive during Covid.
Not sure what I’m gonna do tonight. Jack suggested another movie and there’s Carey’s book and well the ACIM lessson which I haven’t gotten to and probably won’t until tomorrow. That’ll put me 2 days behind. Oh well we do what we can. And then music and my little buddha and of course washing all the damn dishes. So for now I’ll sign off and go do something. Won’t post this until the end of night. I might have more to say.
11PM — Wow. I did none of the above except take care of the dishes. I went looking into some old file cabinets looking for something (that I did not find) but found a copy of my BA thesis from 1979 at UC Santa Cruz. I didn’t think it was very good at the time because I didn’t really get much reaction from my advisor and sponsor. But I did get the degree and that was what I was looking for. Well I just sat down and read it aloud to myself and it is very good. I think it should be made available as a podcast or something. Sue Beck I think you would agree. Here is the Table of Contents and the Bibliography.
I’ll leave that with you all. But at this time having a thoughtful perspective on what the Prosperos was all about at the time Thane was living, however flawed, is worthwhile.