I spent most of the rest of the day in awe of the beauty of reality, the beauty of my particular area of the universe.

But a few hours into the trip I remember holding my head in my hands and exclaiming, “I AM NOT ME! I AM NOT ME!”

It was not an idea. It was an experience, the experience of rising up out of everything that constituted Ben Gilberti, into the pure awareness that was outside and above my previous identity. It was one of my most important experiential realizations I’ve ever had. I’ve since been free of all the stuff that made up Ben Gilberti; Ben was still perfectly available to experience, but I’d nevermore be stuck in it.

Then the most amazing thing happened. I got the idea of giving a lecture on “The Revolution in Linguistic/Conceptual Framework Brought About by Recent Discoveries in Field Physics and Quantum Mechanics.” It was an original idea and the whole of the lecture stood before me, ready to be expressed.

So, incredibly, I went to one of my professors before his class started and asked him if I could teach his class for him that day. He asked about what. And I told him the title of the talk I just wrote above. He was intrigued and allowed me to do it. He introduced me and up I went to the front of the class and for 50 minutes delivered a stupendous lecture. And then at the very end, I told them that the talk was so good because I was tripping my ass off on LSD.

Everyone was stunned.

I gave the lecture two more times that day, and gradually the trip came to an end.

~ Ben Gilberti

The sense of location is because of the act of Seeing, or perceiving. Without perceiving or seeing form, there would be no sense of location, and thus no me at the center of perception.

If you drop or dis-identify completely from any and all forms of Seeing, Awareness will drop inward into pure Being devoid of a body, mind, location and world. Bliss, Clarity and Peace reign supreme here. This is Self-Realization.

Then when you drop or dis-identify from even this pure Being, by realizing that even this Beingness appears to YOU, a great void will open up which is the gateway, tunnel, or bridge into realizing the Absolute. Continue to recede. Not this, not this. (Neti-Neti)

The distance that is generated between the Great I Am, or Pure Being (God)–which is the formless essence of All That Is–may generate this sense of void or nothingness, which is in and of itself not the goal. Its only real use is to function as a space that can show the difference between the Great I Am and yourself as the Absolute.

Like the space between your body and the mirror which reflects the body; it is not helpful to become too enamored with the space in between if your intention is to learn about your reflection. Rather, look in the mirror and Realize that your real face is not in the mirror.

In the same way, use pure, thoughtless, wordless Beingness as this mirror to realize the Faceless Absolute which cannot ever appear: You. You have never appeared and shall never appear. Awareness appears to you, you do not appear to Awareness. Not even God knows you, God appears unto you.

The true you is older than God, older than Awareness. Older than Beingness. Older than timeless Presence.

Nothingness is merely the ocean between Beingness and the Absolute. You want to realize the Absolute, not merely drown in Nothingness. You are beyond/free from even Nothingness/the Void.

~ Bentinho Massaro

Well, the idea that the bible is the inerrant word of God, also didn’t make any sense. So I reviewed the story on its own merits.

The general idea is that God punishes man for sin, and that punishment is in the form of some kind of pain, the pain being “the price you pay” for your sin. So there is a price of pain to be paid to God for your sins.

Alright, but then God decided that that is hard on people, so he sends his only son to Earth in a human body to suffer and die on a cross to pay for our sins.

So in other words, God has to get paid with pain. If you sin, someone has to pay God for your sin. God absolutely demands this payment, but it doesn’t matter if someone else suffers pain on your behalf, that still would pay God just as much as if the sinner himself paid.

And the only way someone could pay for ALL of humanity’s sins is if his own precious Son suffered to such an extreme that enough pain was experienced by his Son so as to pay up on all the suffering that God absolutely demands for human sins.

Alright, it’s a fascinating story, but it just doesn’t add up, it just doesn’t make sense.

“Yeah but God said it so you should believe it!!”

Well as I say, I don’t believe the bible is God’s inerrant word. It’s got some good stuff in it, but most of it doesn’t make sense to me either.

God is perfectly capable of speaking to me directly, he doesn’t need a book to do it, especially a book that is ridiculous in so many ways.

If you ask me, (and by this time many of you would never ask me), the only reason why so many people believe in all this nonsense is because the story of Hell is the torture of fire for all eternity. They may not be sure whether the story of Hell is true or not, but they figure they better not take their chances. Best to be on the safe side and go along with the religion.

But only if you’re born into the religion. If you were born into a Muslim home, then the Koran is what you’ll need to go along with. Or any of the other places on Earth where religious books other than the bible are believed.

~ Ben Gilberti

Here, we’re going to zoom into one tiny piece of the Mandelbrot Fractal, and as you’ll see, the detail that shows up is fabulous, and, in fact, it could go on forever. But we’ll just do it for 5 minutes. Bump it up to full screen. Focus on the center of the screen as it unfolds, relax, and enjoy!!