When I dropped out of college, I was lost for the first time

With no idea what to do or what plan to follow

I was reading plenty to try “figure out” what to do

A simple idea dawned upon me “Fear will show me the way”

The idea still reminds me of a Joseph Campbell quote:

“In the cave you fear to enter lies the treasure that you seek”

When it caught me, I accepted I would never “figure out what to do with myself”

Instead I had to act

I had to go face my fears

I sat down an meditated on 5 experiences that I felt would be terrifying to me

What came up was:

1 – Fear of getting in a barfight with a Dublin knacker and not being able to defend myself or my friends (my friend died in a barfight)

2 – Fear of walking up to a 10/10 girl and talking to her

3 – Fear of speaking on stage in public

4 – Fear of saying what was on my mind to people when it was socially intimidating

5 – Fear of going broke

I stared at these five fears and realised a powerful truth:

All I had to do was confront these relentlessly for the next few years

That’s the perfect “plan”

Every day I had to summon a little courage and conquer a dose of adrenaline

I dropped a lot of my intellectual pursuits and focused on building a life that put me in these situations as often as possible:

• I joined a fight gym (An inner city Muay Thai gym full of Polish immigrants who would kick the shit out of me haha)
• I discovered “game” and went cold approaching beautiful girls when I saw them
• I found places doing stage storytelling, comedy, and musical acts and I got up and began performing
• I focused on money and how to make an income for myself that didn’t steal my time and make me vulnrable
• I began listening to that welt of “tension” that would build up in conversations when I wanted to say something but felt it would be dangerous – and I began pushing myself to say it

These decisions were the greatest decisions of my Life

They broke me out of the pathways that most normies get trapped in

I ended up avoiding the corporate job Life

I went on the martial arts journey

I learned to trust my gut and call out what I saw

I learned to grow a pair and go talk to girls I liked

I ended up putting myself out there in public and learning to handle pressure

I was blessed by this strange intuition

It set me on a Life path that led me to freedom and independence of mind that I almost never see anymore

It forced me to earn the favor of that old Roman God; Virture

Uberboyo (boyoalert@gmail.com)